The feelings of anger, sadness and devastation that could be heard four years ago have been replaced with a calmness.
But that doesn’t mean the events of that summer — when her sister Carol King was murdered in Saskatchewan — are forgotten.
They never will be.
Originally from Mattis Point, Ms. King had been living in the Herschel area of Saskatchewan for about three years.
She had always kept in regular contact with her family, so when they were unable to reach her they knew something was wrong.
Ms. King was reported missing four years ago today, Aug. 6, 2011. Three weeks later on Aug. 27, her family’s worst fears were confirmed when the 40-year-old woman’s body was discovered at an abandoned property not far from her home.
“It’s always brought up in some way for me,” Brenda said from her home in Nova Scotia on July 30.
“Every couple of weeks, every couple of months, it’s always brought up.”
But on this day, Brenda was preparing to head home to Mattis Point to be with her parents, Carl and Yvonne King, on the anniversary of her sister’s death.
Over the past four years the family has mourned and celebrated the life of their daughter, sister, sister-in-law and aunt.
Brenda is not sure what her mother has in mind for this year, but she just wants to be there.
Being there is something she’s done a lot of as she travelled to Saskatchewan in the early days to search for her sister.
“I’m just as peeved off as ever really,” she said, although her voice doesn’t project the same sense of anger it once did.
“I guess you know four years is long enough ... I know you can never really accept it or anything like that, but you have to move on. It’s hard but ...” she said, her voice trailing off.
“But you have your good days and you have your bad days.”
The same is true for other family members, who all cope in different ways.
“I feel like my mom gets signs from my sister. Like certain things will happen where she feels like she’s OK.”
For Brenda, the happiest memories are of the last two vacations they spent together.
“We had really awesome vacations together.”
Meanwhile, there’s nothing new to report on the investigation into her sister’s death.
“Everything is pretty much the same. You never hear anything from them,” Brenda said of the Royal Canadian Mounted Police in Saskatchewan.
But that doesn’t stop her from calling.
“They’re saying it’s not a cold case, but we never hear any information.”
The Western Star attempted to contact the investigating officer, Sgt. Craig Cleary with the Saskatchewan RCMP. Cleary was on vacation, however, and was unavailable for comment.